In My Mind

I want it be over, I wanted it to be a lie
I wish wouldn't have happen, in our lives
Then everything we had would be alright
But even when I try to forgive you
I can't help to think, why ?

Reason why I make you feel tension
I can't act like it ain't happen
I really did the upmost
To bury in my mind
In my mind

I look you in
Your eyes
I can't believe you
Hurt me
Use to bring me
So much peace
Now I look
And Ask, why ?

You say it don't hold no weight
How could you give someone the same thing
You gave me
I ask myself
How did we get here

Reason why I make you feel my tension
I can't act like it didn't happen
I really did the upmost
To bury it in my mind
In my mind

I just don't get it
I'm giving you all of me
I really really did the up damn most
To bury it in my mind
In my mind


I see your efforts but
I can't get it out my mind and
Sometime I don't want you to touch me
Cause all I can think is
I feel like you gave her
A part of you , you should've gave me

I felt so worthless then
I feel like you been comparing the two
I tried loving you open again
It was so simple then


Reason why I make you feel my tension
I can't act like it didn't happen
I really really did the up damn most
To bury it in my mind


I've seen her
Not (even)the slightest bit of her
Could be next to me
How could you
& no this ain't me
You don't know hurt
If you ain't try to pray the pain away
It ain't going
Did you forget who you hurt
You forget who I was
It's me
I'm Kerstin
Did you forget who I was


7 years in this with you
& you treat me like this
You treating me unfairly
I know it's not same (anymore)
But you did this